QUESTIONS

Ever wondered where your life is really heading? Why does one thing excite you so much but not the other? What are you suppose to feel? Is it right to feel what you feel? What is the dream takes off? A bigger what IF the dream never starts? 

The thought of throwing it all away when things take flight is easy; throwing it all away when nothing happens? Not so favourable. It's human nature and what if I say I do understand but do you hear me? 

Time to make 2 lists: one to keep as my own torch, another to be thrown away. 

In Between // Close

Is it okay that I am comfortable virtually, but not close in reality? Like I feel we're match-made in heaven to be best friends over random virtual conversations on twitter or whatsapp, but facing nothing but uneasiness and awkward not-more-than-two-seconds eye contact when it comes to a face-to-face encounter. 

The distance is something I'm so used to. This distance of us knowing each other by a mere-square tiled, over-filtered display pictures, of us picturing each other's facial's expressions through the massive emojis and stickers, of us reciting each other's voices using our imagination of how shrill or raucous we sound while we read through the replies, and of us expressing more care and concern for each other because the computer screen hides our bashfulness.

Help! Is the digital world eroding my level of sociability or am I entering a mid-life crisis?

Lies

It's hard to trust someone again knowing they lied.

You have this feeling of not wanting to trust them again, but after all you have gone through with them, you still want their trust. You have doubts in your mind because you don't want to risk it anymore.

Knowing they lied to you, just hurts and you don't ever want to be hurt again because of the same reasons, lies. 

Day 320

"I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough. We waste too much time putting ourselves down, that we don’t ever stop to see that we are good enough. We spend too much time with our heads down and hearts closed, and never get a chance to look up from the ground and see that the sun is shining and tomorrow is another day."

Then I guess it all comes down to whether this is all enough for me.

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1. It takes years to build trust but a minute to destroy it. 

2. There's a difference between being stupid and being understanding.  

3. Everyone is replaceable. 

4. Heartbreak changes a person. 

5. People forgive but never forget.  

6. Some old wounds never truly heal and bleed again at the slightest word.